Gish

I Am One
billy corgan/james iha

I am one as you are three
Try to find a messiah in your trinity
Your city to burn
Your city to burn
Try to look for something
In your city to burn, you'll burn
Am I as I seem?
I'm down
Down, so down

Time is right for a guiding light
Try to turn to reasons in your bitter life
Your city to burn
Your city to burn
Try to look for something
In your city to burn, you'll burn

See you, don't you just want to
See you, I am one
See you, don't you just want to
See you

See you, don't you just want to
See you, I am one
See you, don't you just want to
See you, I am one


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Siva
billy corgan

I spin off and lose my head
Throwing stray a spark instead
Gather strength down in my heel
And dig it in the world I peel

Way down deep within my heart
Lies a soul that's torn apart
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I inhale
I don't give - I unveil
Don't want to live in your misery
I don't live - I inhale

Sprinkle all my kisses on your head
Stars full of wishes fill our beds
She said, "I'm dead"

All this pain smothers me
Like a bomb that you can't see
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I inhale
I don't give - I unveil
I don't live - I inhale
I don't live


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Rhinoceros
billy corgan

Planned a show
Trees and Balloons
Ice cream snow
See you in June

Could have known
I would reveal
Should have known
I would conceal your way

She knows, she knows, she knows
She knows, she knows, she knows
How's it
She knows, she knows, she knows

Colors show
After the moon
I should go
See you in June
Your way

Open your eyes
To these must I lie?


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Bury Me
billy corgan

(boys, let's do it)

Bury me in love
Bury me in love

Shared your kisses, take your heart
Buried me and it hurts

I love my sister so
She don't smother me
I played the spades I know
I'm a Jack of all trades
Would you bury me?

Once you see her
One inside (hide, hide)
Some things you just can't hide
If you see her
Tell me why (why, why)
Why won't she come outside?

Once you see her
One inside (hide, hide)
Some things you just can't hide
If you see her
Tell me why (why, why)
Why won't she come outside?

She will bury me
She will bury me


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Crush
billy corgan

You wrap your arms around
A feeling that surrounds
Like liquid peppermint
Just taste the drinks that she served

And this feeling shivers down your spine
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that matters is love, love, your love

You're sleeping in your bed
Just rest your weary head
Maybe you shouldn't care
Throw away those dreams and dare

And I wonder if it matters to me
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that shimmers is love, love, your love
Your love
Your love


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Suffer
billy corgan

All that you suffer is all that you are
All that you smother is all that you are
And you're saying you're seeing, you're saying who you are
What takes meaning is cleaning the meaning of who you are

All may say
I will dream
All may say

All of your struggles beneath your disguise
Drink from the reasons that hold you alive
'Til we're safe from the wounds of desire and pain
You must rise from the mounds of desire and change

Too late to discover peace of mind
Too late to recover me

All you see and all you breathe and all you cease to be
Taken down your only son and what he means to me
Your dream will be
To dream with me

Will you wait? Yes I will, I will wait for you
To cleanse your life takes more than time
Take what you want
Take all of it

Too late to discover peace of mind (have no peace of mind)
To late to recover


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Snail
billy corgan

All your seven dreams
Look close, son, and you'll believe
As your things come undone
See you are the only one

Flower, seize the hour I did
I wait
Waiting, waiting for your wake
I'll wait

When you wake up you're all weak
Throwing your life away
Someday, sorry coming home
Sorry snail
What you wait for

Flower, the pain will wash away, away
When the sun shines
Climbs through your window into your bed

When you wake up you're all weak
Throwing your life away
Someday, sorry coming home
Sorry snail
Down in my heart

Flower save the hours
Flower away

What you wait for
Flower chase the sunshine
Flower chase the sunshine
Flower


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Tristessa
billy corgan

Pledged your faith
my heart embraced
struggle to renew

Blurry mind
so hypnotized
fast enough who

Wonder where you are
Tristessa

Soul takes soul
as I take eye
I will wait for you

What you believe
you'll wish to receive
I won't believe in you

Hang on to your life
Tristessa

I love you true
Surely I do
I love you true
Surely I do
Surely I do
Surely I do (no)

Do you ever wake up and find yourself alone?
Do you ever wake up far from home?
What you believe
you'll wish to receive
I won't believe in you
Tristessa
Tristessa
Tristessa


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Window Paine
billy corgan

Window paine
Around my heart
Shadows streak
Around my heart

Do what you got to do
And say what you got to say
Do what you got to do
Yes, start today
Start today

Wind blow shame
Around my heart
Shadows scream
Around my heart

What are you coming to
Stripped down to the bone?
Laughing, living on your own
All alone

Do what you got to do
And say what you got to say
Do what you got to do
Yes, start today
Start today


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Daydream
billy corgan

My daydream seems as one inside of you
Though it seems hard to reach through this life
Your blue and hopeless life

My daydream screams bitter 'til the end
The love I share -true- selfish to the heart
My heart, my sacred heart

My daydream dream
My daydream
My daydream dream
My daydream

I'm going crazy
I'm going crazy
I don't want feelings
Your feelings

I have gone crazy
Motherf***in' crazy
I have gone

Siamese Dream

cherub rock
billy corgan
??92 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Freak out
And give in
Doesn't matter what you believe in
Stay cool
And be somebody's fool this year
'cause they know
Who is righteous, What is bold
So I'm told

Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?

Hipsters unite
Come align for the big fight to rock for you
But beware
All those angels with there wings glued on
'cause deep down
We are frightened and we're scared
If you don't stare

Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?

Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out

Tell me all of your secrets
Cannot help but believe this is true
Tell me all of your secrets
I know, I know, I know,
Should have listened when I was told

Who wants honey
As long as there is some money
Who wants that honey?

Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
let me out




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quiet
billy corgan
??92 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Quiet
I am sleeping
In here
We need a little hope

For years
I've been sleeping
Helpless
Couldn't tell a soul

Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me

Silent
Metal mercies
Castrate
Boys to the bone

Jesus
Are you listening?
Up there
To anyone at all

We are the fossils
The relics of our time
We mutilate the meanings
So they're easy to deny

Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me

Quiet
I am sleeping
Quiet
I am sleeping
Quiet
I don't trust you
I can't hear you

Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me

Behind me
The grace of falling snow
Cover up everything you know
Come save me from the awful sound
Of nothing



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today
billy corgan
??92 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow's much too long
I'll burn my eyes out
Before I get out

I wanted more
Than life could ever grant me
Bored by the chore
Of saving face

Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I'll tear my heart out
Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings

Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day

I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you

Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever really known



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hummer
billy corgan
??92 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Faith lies in
The ways of sin
I chased the charmed
But I don't want them anymore

And in their eyes I was alive
A fool's disguise
Take me away from you

Shame my tongue
Fat with promise all along
But when I woke up from that sleep
I was happier than I'd ever been

When you decide
That your life is a prize
Renew and revive
It's alright honey
It's alright, yeah

Happiness will make you wonder
Will I feel OK?
It scares the disenchanted
Far away

Yeah I want something new
But what am I supposed to do about you
Yeah I love you, it's true

Life's a bummer
When you're a hummer
Life's a drag

Ask yourself a question
Anyone but me
I ain't free

Ask yourself a question
Anyone but me
I ain't free

Do you feel
Love is real?



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rocket
billy corgan
??92 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

NORMAL LYRICS
Bleed in your own light
Dream of your own life
I miss me
I miss everything I'll never be
And on, and on

I torch my soul to show
The world that I am pure
Deep inside my heart
No more lies

A crown of horns
An image formed deformed
The mark I've borne
A mark of scorn to you

Consume my love, devour my hate
Only powers my escape
The moon is out, the stars invite
I think I'll leave tonight

So soon I'll find myself alone
To relax and fade away
Do you know what's coming down
Do you know I couldn't stay free?

I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free free
Free of those voices inside me
I shall be free
I shall be free

ALTERNATE LYRICS
Bleed in your own light
Dream of your own life
I hear you
I hear you return, come back again
Come on, come on

And when your days return
You'll find yourself alone
With your hands above your heart
And we'll rise

We'll rise again
I won't pretend, yeah yeah
We'll rise again
I won't pretend, yeah yeah, with you

'Cause when you find yourself alone
With your hands above your heart
'Cause when you find yourself alone
With your hands above your heart

You'll find yourself alone
To relax and fade away
You'll find yourself alone
To relax and fade away

I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free, of me
Come on, come on
Come on, come on
Come on, come on
I shall be free
Let go that rocket inside of me



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disarm
billy corgan
??92 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
cello: eric remschneider
violin: david ragsdale

Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you



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soma
billy corgan/james iha
??92 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
piano: mike mills

Nothing left to say
And all I've left to do
Is run away
From you
And she led me on, down
With secrets I can't keep

Close your eyes and sleep
Don't wait up for me
Hush now don't you speak
To me

Wrapped my hurt in you
And took my shelter in that pain
The opiate of blame
Is your broken heart, your heart

So now I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
I'll betray my tears
To anyone caught in our ruse of fools

One last kiss for me...yeah
One last kiss good night

Didn't want to lose you once again
Didn't want to be your friend
Fulfilled a promise made of tin
And crawled back to you

I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
I'll betray myself
To anyone, lost, anyone but you

So let the sadness come again
On that you can depend on me, yeah
Until the bitter, bitter end of the world, yeah
When god sleeps in bliss

And I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
And I'll betray myself
To anyone



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geek u.s.a.
billy corgan
??93 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Lover lover let's pretend
We're born as innocents
Cast into the world
With apple eyes

To wish wish dangerous
My dear delirious
To try and leave
The rest of us behind

Shot full of diamonds
And a million years
The disappointed disappear
Like they were never here

Kiss kiss all of this
The hiss that we had missed
And understand what can't be understood

Sear those thoughts of me
Alone and unhappy
I never liked me anyway

If by chance
Or circumstance
We should fail
Don't be so sad

Shot full of diamonds
And a million years
The disappointed disappear
Like they were never here

In a dream
We are connected
Siamese twins
At the wrist

And then I knew we'd been forsaken
Expelled from paradise
I can't believe them
When they say that it's alright

Words can't define what I feel inside
Who needs them?
Caught with this virus of my mind
I give in to my disease, of my needs
To my disease, of my needs

She really loves to break
Her dad says its OK
She really loves to break
And give it all away

Her ma says she's afraid
What more can she fake
She really needs to break
And give herself away

She gave it all away
She gave it all away
She gave it all away
We really love the USA



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mayonaise
billy corgan/james iha
??92 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
Doomed
Pick your pockets full of sorrow
And run away with me tomorrow
June

We'll try and ease the pain
But somehow we'll feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go

I send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so dreary
Dream
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
While the harlots of my perils
Scream

And I fail
But when I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will

Mother weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given
Back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
That cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling
So bad

When I can, I will
Words defy the plans
When I can, I will

Fool enough to almost be it
And cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I'll always feel this

No more promise no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
When I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will



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spaceboy
billy corgan
??92 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Feel it
Break your bones
Mr. jones

Taste me
As I bleed
Taste my need

And spaceboy I've missed you
Spinning round my head
And any way you choose me
You'll break instead

Watch me
Death defy
Defile my life

I don't need
I don't care
Please

I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
'cause when a lover aches
That's when a lover breaks
I want to go home
I want to go home

And spaceboy they'll kill me
Before I'm dead and gone
And any way you choose me
It won't be wrong
And anyway you choose me
We won't belong

We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong




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silverf***
billy corgan
??93 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

I hear your winter
I hear you rain
I've failed your summer ways
And I feel no pain

I hear what you want
And I feel that way
I hear what you want
And I feel that way

I hear you fade away
And I hear you crawl
I gave my life away
And I feel no pain
And I feel no pain
And I feel no pain
And I feel your pain

And she was my lover so sweet
And she was my angel
And what I've recovered of me
I put into a box underneath my bed

When you lie in your bed
And you lie to yourself
When you lie in your bed
And you lie to yourself
Lie
Lie

Bang bang you're dead hole in your head
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head

I hear what you want
And I feel that way
I hear what you want
And I feel that way

[This take, don't give a f***]


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sweet sweet
billy corgan
??93 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Sweet sweet sweet sweet little agony
I don't know just where you've been
But I'll take take take
All that you have for me
In sin
Where are we going?

And they all want you to change
And they all want you to change

And the sad sad sad
All the sad faces drown
In this town
Where are we going?

And they all want you to change
Where are we going?
And they all want you to change
Where are we going?



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luna
billy corgan
??93 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)
cello: eric remschneider
violin: david ragsdale

What moonsongs
Do you sing your babies?
What sunshine do you bring?

Who belongs
Who decides who's crazy
Who rights wrongs where others cling?

I'll sing for you
If you want me to
I'll give to you
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I go along
Just because I'm lazy
I go along to be with you

And those moonsongs
That you sing your babies
Will be the songs to see you through

I'll hear your song
If you want me to
I'll sing along
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
With you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
I'm
I'm so in love
I'm in love with you

Pisces Iscariot

soothe
billy corgan
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

update by eric agnew - 9/29/95
ok, after hearing a live version of this song it was (finally) clear that i was wrong all along, it -is- "hungry." my apologies to those who've been trying to tell me this, only to have me laugh at them, and thanks to brian (ansigod@aol.com) for letting me call him to hear the live version. :>
for those of you who still don't believe, check it out for yourself...

hungry, hungry again
hungry, hungry again
when will it start to sway
when will it start to almost break you
hungry, hungry again
hungry, hungry again
i'll miss you
and i wish you luck
well, i forgive you
and i don't wish you away, away, away
it'll almost break you
almost take you
almost break you
almost break you up


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frail and bedazzled
billy corgan
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

so now listen here *or "so"
i wanna be oh so clear
i lost my soul, lost i'll stay
between your hands and my beliefs
and here i am, frail
frail and bedazzled from all the glare

tug at my sleeve
my little girl, supermaid
she don't know that i have stole my smile from a cheshire cat
and all i wanted was to be a man
since i gave up
i feel free
i feel free
i feel free
i feel free

the two of us, that's dangerous
it's all inside our heads
givin' in for nothin' less
leavin' me for him

try to understand
the ones i love
and their demands
it's so unfair
when they can't see
that i'm the boy
who really needs
their love,
i suppose

frail and bedazzled from all the
frail and bedazzled from all the
frail and bedazzled from all the glare


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plume
billy corgan/james iha
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

oh yeah, another day
oh yeah, gotta play
what it is, it never was
i don't care to give enough

my boredom has outshined the sun
it's all down low
i just want to have some
little fun

oh yeah, another day
oh yeah, what a waste
what it is, it never was
i don't care or give a f***

my boredom has outshined the sun
it's all down low
i just want to have some
little fun

bring me down
bring me down


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whir
billy corgan
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

i've wasted all my years
been chasin' all my fears
for another brighter than you
i gave in long ago to make it to the show,
but it's not easy when you're alone

all your prayers
in my ears
don't you care?

whir yourself around
just to fall back down
whir yourself around

my honey, little girl
c'mon, lets go for a whirl
it's still early, the sun is sleeping

she says she wants to marry me
she says she wants a baby
it's not easy when you're scared

whir yourself around
just to fall back down
whir yourself around

all your prayers
in my ears
don't you care?


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blew away
james iha
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

blew, blew away
but i don't wanna fade
blew, blew

and if you love her
you know it will come true
and if you need her
you know that she'll be there

stay awake, i lie here
with her and i fall
(and) when i wake inside you
i know you know i'm yours

blew, blew away
but i don't wanna fade
blew, blew

and if you're sad, too
until the angel sings and touches you
don't confuse my only life

i said blew, and please don't ever leave
and i will grieve, and (re)member thee
hope to meet you there

and i wanna let her know
that i won't let her go
i wanna let her know
that i love her so

i'm blew, blew, blew away
but i don't wanna--
blew, i love you
blew


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pissant
billy corgan
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

got me a raygun
got me an altitude
can't help feelin' something's wrong
with every one of you

inside your head
trust me instead
inside your head

talk revolution
as if it matters now
i don't care anyway
just give me what i want

inside your head
trust me instead
inside your head

ooh, honey
fill me with your little whispers
store your little nightmares
of a generation set to burn

come on honey
let's go for a ride
down where the crickets learn to sing and play, baby

inside your head
trust me instead
inside your head
trust me instead
inside your head
trust me instead
inside your head

yeah, it's a motherf***er, oh



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hello kitty kat
billy corgan
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

say hello before you say goodbye
i should go before you make me cry
she wants to bleed every drop inside of me
but i aim to please the little girl inside of me, too

yeah, yeah
you know i hate to say (it)
oh no, i always stay
i don't want to be like the others, please

who is sorry now?
who is sorry now?
if i show you how,
will you let me down?

slit my wrists and die a whore
love to love to love what you adore
i can give you anything,
but please let me be your everything
you lose

yeah, yeah
you know i hate to say it
oh no, i always stay
i don't wanna be like the others, please

who is sorry now?
if i show you how,
will you let me down?
will you let me down?
who is sorry now?
who is sorry now?

my love is weakness
my love is oh so wrong
my love is sadness
my love is oh so strong
my teeth are razor sharp
my love is f***ing strong
i'll be with you
but not for long

oh, oh, oh

yeah, yeah
you know i hate to say it
oh no, i always stay
i don't wanna be like the others, please

who is sorry now?
who is sorry now?
who is sorry now?
if i show you how,
will you let me down?
will you let me down?
please let me down
please let me down

(song's over)


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obscured
billy corgan
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

lost your head, now you sleep on the floor
what you said, i don't want anymore
through the haze, make your eyes up to ache
out in space, days away

through these eyes
i rely on all i've seen
obscured
through these eyes
it looks like i'm home tonight

left for dead as you sweep out the cold
things we said we don't need anymore
tale inside her like a fallen kite
hey, hey, yeah

through these eyes
i deny on all i see
obscured
through these eyes
it looks like i'm home tonight

what you said made a mess of me
what you said, i don't want
obscured


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landslide
stevie nicks
??94 welsh witch music/sony songs inc. (bmi)

i took my love and took it down
i climbed a mountain, i turned around
and i saw my reflection in a snow covered hill
'til the landslide brought it down

oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
can the child within my heart rise above?
can i sail through the changing ocean tides?
can i handle the seasons of my life?

well, i've been afraid of changing cause i've
built my life around you
but time makes you bolder
even children get older
and i'm getting older, too

well, i've been afraid of changing cause i've
built my life around you
time makes you bolder
even children get older
and i'm getting older, too
i'm getting older, too

i took my love and took it down
i climbed a mountain, i turned around
and if you see my reflection in the snow covered hill
the landslide brought it down
the landslide brought it down


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starla
billy corgan
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

i'm in here
please take me home
starla dear
i'm all alone

when you can't decide what's on your mind
it's clear i'm here, starla dear

to disappear takes so much time
starla dear, you're on my mind

soon, soon i'll be leaving
soon, soon i'll be leaving
i hear all you're saying
i hear all you're failing

i'm in here
please take me home
starla dear
i'm all alone

when you can't decide what's on your mind
it's clear i'm here, starla dear

serve yourself
no one else can do for you like you
and no one else fails like me
in my eyes i burn alive
fly like a bird
no more words just you and i
high in the sky


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blue
billy corgan
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

hey blue, all your love is strange
come out with all those crazy names
so true when you lie
for you, blue

right or wrong
i belong
right or wrong

hey blue, where'd you run to now?
miss you since they found you out
i've been waiting such a long time
for your smile, for you

i lay with you this velvet morning
stay with me for a while
where we run to is up to you
just stay with me for a while


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girl named sandoz
eric burdon/john weider
??94 unichappell music, inc. (bmi)

well i met a girl called sandoz
and she taught me many many things
good things, very good things
sweet things

i met her on a sunday morning
it was hot though the snow lay on the ground
strange things, very strange things
my mind has wings

sandoz sandoz
will you tell me no?
sandoz sandoz
will you tell me why?
we could all learn something from your mind, yeah

she is very old yet many think she's young
one kiss from her and you know your time has come
good times, for all time
sandoz


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la dolly vita
billy corgan
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

i lay my head on her bosom
to cry myself to sleep
i see no greater wisdom
than she has given me

la dolly vita
sweet as true love
la dolly vita
cool as ice cream
cool as ice cream

you hear a lot of visions
you can't even stop
can't see what you're missing
spinning like a top

fade away, i want to see her
fade away, i want to see her
i only want to meet her

la dolly vita
true as blue sky
la dolly vita
cool as ice cream
cool as ice cream

take it all the way down
forsake what you have now
take it all the way down


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spaced
billy corgan
??94 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

dad
dead
was i ever alive?
f***ing makes you alive in one minute
solstice
i am solstice filled with mercury
filled with mercury
liquid f***ed
see right through your heart
f*** your heart
i am mercury liquid pure
hot, alive, dead, mucked fish eyes, doe eyes
i was born alive
i'll f***ing kill you
i'll beat your soft baby head with my own hand {?}
careful with that baby...
don't ever say the h word around him
ashamed
i am ashamed of my name
say it
i hate the sound of your s*** because it means no good
it means cheap, liar, smarta** piece of s***
change it to raygun you f***
billy the loon
i am the loon
i am mars
billy addly addly addly....
your name causes s***
while i may be no expert on this reality,
there is no god, but shame
god is hurt, god is cold
try that once, god is dead
there is not another one
battle
cold heart radio
feedback
the pain
recurring messages of badness
recurring living bad dreams at the vortex of lost souls
wailing lost souls of shame
we are in one hole
like a cup of mercury phosphate
brrr
shuddering around {?}
taste my s*** you wench
lifting, wailing lost souls who stand a chance
hot, my eyes darkly gaze and wonder
do not enter
why?
i was born whole
fractured, divided, shattered into a billion fragments
a million piece puzzle
a million piece jigsaw puzzle with no this, and no that....

Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness

tonight, tonight
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

time is never time at all
you can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
and our lives are forever changed
we will never be the same
the more you change the less you feel
believe, believe in me, believe
that life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
we're not the same, we're different tonight
tonight, so bright
tonight
and you know you're never sure
but you're sure you could be right
if you held yourself up to the light
and the embers never fade in your city by the lake
the place where you were born
believe, believe in me, believe
in the resolute urgency of now
and if you believe there's not a chance tonight
tonight, so bright tonight
we'll crucify the insincere tonight
we'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
we'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
the indescribable moments of your life tonight
the impossible is possible tonight
believe in me as i believe in you, tonight


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jellybelly
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

welcome to nowhere fast
nothing here ever lasts
nothing but memories
of what never was
we're nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to be
nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to see
living makes me sick
so sick i wish i'd die
down in the belly of the beast
i can't lie
you're nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to be
nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to see
there's nothing left to do
there's nothing left to feel
doesn't matter what you want, so
to make yourself feel better
you make it so you'll never
give in to your forevers
and live for always
and forever, forever, you're forever to be
forever, forever, you're forever to me


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zero
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

my reflection, dirty mirror
there's no connection to myself
i'm your lover, i'm your zero
i'm the face in your dreams of glass
so save your prayers
for when you're really gonna need 'em
throw out your cares and fly
wanna go for a ride?

she's the one for me
she's all i really need
cause she's the one for me
emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
and cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
intoxicated with the madness, i'm in love with my sadness
bulls*** fakers, enchanted kingdoms
the fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
i never let on, that i was on a sinking ship
i never let on that i was down
you blame yourself, for what you can't ignore
you blame yourself for wanting more
she's the one for me
she's all i really need
she's the one for me
she's my one and only


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here is no why
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

the useless drag of another day
the endless drags of a death rock boy
mascara sure and lipstick lost
glitter burned by restless thoughts of being forgotten
and in your sad machines
you'll forever stay
desperate and displeased-with whoever you are
and you're a star
somewhere-he pulls his hair down-over a frowning smile
a hidden diamond you cannot find
a secret star that cannot shine over to you
may the king of gloom, be forever doomed
and in your sad machines
you'll forever stay
burning up in speed
lost inside the dreams, of teen machines
the useless drags, the empty days
the lonely towers of long mistakes
to forgotten faces and faded loves
sitting still was never enough
and if you're giving in, then you're giving up
cause in your sad machines
you'll forever stay
burning up in speed
lost inside the dreams, of teen machines


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bullet with butterfly wings
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

the world is a vampire, sent to drain
secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
and what do i get, for my pain
betrayed desires, and a piece of the game
even though i know-i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold-like old job
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
now i'm naked, nothing but an animal
but can you fake it, for just one more show
and what do you want, i want to change
and what have you got
when you feel the same
even though i know-i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold-like old job
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
tell me i'm the only one
tell me there's no other one
jesus was an only son
tell me i'm the chosen one
jesus was an only son for you
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
and i still believe that i cannot be saved


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to forgive
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

ten times removed
i forget about where it all began
bastard son of a bastard son of
a wild eyed child of the sun
and right as rain, i'm not the same but
i feel the same, i feel nothing
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again
i sensed my loss
before i even learned to talk
and i remember my birthdays
empty party afternoons won't come back
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again
i forget to forget me
i forget to forget you see
nothing is important to me
i knew my loss
before i even learned to speak
and all along, i knew it was wrong
but i played along, with my birthday song
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again


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f*** you (an ode to no one)
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

i'm never coming back
i'm never giving in
i'll never be the shine in your spit
i disconnect the act
i disconnect the dots
i disconnect the me in me
and you're mistaken, it's you that's faking
living and breathing and dying too
this message is for anyone who dares to hear a fool
you can't bring me back, you can't bring me back
cause i gave it all back to you
thru sacred alleys, the living wrecks
wreak their havoc upon this world
the disenchanted, the romantics,
the body and face and soul of you is gone down that deep black hole
destroy the mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart
and you, you make me so i need to disconnect
and you make it so real
i don't need your love to disconnect
to runaround kids in get-go cars
with vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs
galaxies full of nobodies
giving us the farewell runarounds
i took a virgin mary axe to his sweet baby jane,
lost my innocence to a no good girl, scratch my face with anvil hands,
and coil my tongue around a bumblebee mouth
and i give it all back to you
no way, i don't need it, i don't need your love to disconnect
and you make it, so real, i don't need your love to disconnect
no way to disconnect
and you make it so real
i don't need your love to disconnect
no way to disconnect


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love
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

to my mistakes, to my mistakes of cowardice
she shimmy shakes, the jimmy jakes of consequence
born of the airs and dues, my airs of madness do declare
that it's ok, it's love
it's what you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be
for what you needed to need, she'll make it up
love, it's who you know
machine gun blues, her vacant rush is so steel
i'm unaware, lost inside your visions
i got mine too over, i got mine and i got you
cause i know you, you're love
it's what you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be
for what you needed to need, she'll make it up
love, it's who you know
can i look up to you as you look down on me
can i feel in to you as you felt in to me
i can't help what you see, i can't help but to be
for what i needed to need, she'll make it
love, it's who you know


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cupid de locke
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

cupid hath pulled back hi sweetheart's bow
to cast divine arrows into her soul
to grab her attention swift and quick
or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick
with turpentine kisses and mistaken blows

see the devil may do as the devil may care
he loves none sweeter as sweeter the dare
her mouth the mischief he doth seek
her heart the captive of which he speaks
so note all ye lovers in love with the sound
your world be shattered with nary a note
of one cupids arrow under your coat

and in the land of star crossed lovers
and barren hearted wanderers
forever lost in forsaken missives and satan's pull
we seek the unseekable and we speak the unspeakable
our hopes dead gathering dust to dust
in faith, in compassion, and in love


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galapogos
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a child
softly stolen under our blanket skies
and rescue me from me, and all that i believe
i won't deny the pain
i won't deny the change
and should i fall from grace here with you
will you leave me too?

carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree
and hold me for goodbyes-and whispered lullabyes
and tell me i am still
the man i'm supposed to be
i won't deny the pain
i won't deny the change
and should i fall from grace here with you
will you leave me too?

too late to turn back now, i'm running out of sound
and i am changing, changing
and if we died right now, this fool you love somehow
is here with you
i won't deny the pain
i won't deny the change
and should i fall from grace here with you
would you leave me too?


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muzzle
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

i fear that i am ordinary, just like everyone
to lie here and die among the sorrows
adrift among the days
for everything i ever said
and everything i've ever done is gone and dead
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
my life has been extraordinary
blessed and cursed and won
time heals but i'm forever broken
by and by the way...
have you ever heard the words
i'm singing in these songs?
it's for the girl i've loved all along
can a taste of love be so wrong
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
and in my mind as i was floating
far above the clouds
some children laughed i'd fall for certain
for thinking that i'd last forever
but i knew exactly where i was
and i knew the meaning of it all
and i knew the distance to the sun
and i knew the echo that is love
and i knew the secrets in your spires
and i knew the emptiness of youth
and i knew the solitude of heart
and i knew the murmurs of the soul
and the world is drawn into your hands
and the world is etched upon your heart
and the world so hard to understand
is the world your can't live without
and i knew the silence of the world


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porcelina of the vast oceans
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

as far as you take me, that's where i believe
the realm of soft delusions, floating on the laves
on a distant shoreline, she waves her arms to me
as all the thought police, and closing in for sleep
the dilly dally, of my bright lit stay
the steam of my misfortunes
has given me the power to be afraid
and in my mind i'm everyone
and in my mind
without a care in this whole world
without a care in this life
it's what you take that makes it right
porcelina of the oceans blue
in the slipstream, of thoughtless thoughts
the light of all that's good, the light of all that's true
to the fringes gladly, i walk unadorned
with gods and their creations
with filth and disease
porcelina, she waits for me there
with seashell hissing lullabyes
and whispers fathomed deep inside my own
hidden thoughts and alibis
my secret thoughts come alive
without a care in this whole world
without a care in this life
it's what you take that makes it right
and in my mind i'm everyone
in my mind i'm everyone of you
you make it right
it's all allright
you make it right
porcelina of the oceans blue


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take me down
billy corgan & james iha
??95 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music (bmi)

take me down, to the underground
won't you take me down, to the underground
why oh why, there is no light
and if i can't sleep, can you hold my life
and all i see is you
take my hand, i lost where i began
in my heart i know all of my faults
will you help me understand
and i believe in you
you're the other half of me
soothe and heal...
when you sleep, when you dream,
i'll be there if you need me, whenever i hear you sing...
there is a sun, it'll come, the sun, i hear them call me down
i held you once, a love that once, and life had just begun
and you're all i see...
and trumpets blew, and angels flew on the other side
and you're all i see, and you're all i'll need
there's a love that god puts in your heart


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where boys fear to tread
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

candy cane walks down
to build a bonfire, to break my fall
my baby, my sweet thing
just maybe we could lose ourselves this time
king of the horseflies, dark prince of death
his tragic forces are heaven sent
in sweet things, in a lovers breath
in knowing this was meant to be the last
a go-go-kids, a go-go-style
a suck suck kiss, a suck suck smile
as always, in young need
a veiled promise to never die
on dead highways, her black beauties roam
for june angels, so far from home
for a love lost, a faded picture
to tread lightning, to ink the lavender skies
so get on the bomb
get back where you belong


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bodies
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need
come into my life forever
the crumbled cities stand as known
of the sights you have been shown
of the hurt you call your own
love is suicide

the empty bodies stand at rest
casualties of their own flesh
afflicted by their dispossession
but no bodies ever knew
nobodys
no bodies felt like you
nobodys
love is suicide

now we drive the night, to the ironies of peace
you can't help deny forever
the tragedies reside in you
the secret sights hide in you
the lonely nights divide you in two
all my blisters now revealed
in the darkness of my dreams
in the spaces in between us
but no bodies ever knew
nobodys
no bodies felt like you
nobodys
love is suicide


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thirty-three
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

speak to me in a language i can hear humour me before i have to go
deep in thought i forgive everyone
as the cluttered streets greet me once again
i know i can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
tomorrow's just an excuse away
so I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
the earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
at the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
steeple guide me to my heart and home
the sun is out and up and down again
i know i'll make it, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you
and for a moment i lose myself
wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
i've journeyed here and there and back again
but in the same old haunts i still find my friends
mysteries not ready to reveal
sympathies i'm ready to return
i'll make the effort, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
tomorrow's just an excuse
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you


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in the arms of sleep
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

sleep will not come to this tired body now
peace will not come to this lonely heart
there are some things i'll live without
but i want you to know that i need you right now
i need you tonite
i steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves
cause i'll always miss her wherever she goes
and i'll always need her more than she could ever need me
i need someone to ease my mind
but sometimes a someone is so hard to find
and i'll do anything to keep her here tonite
and i'll say anything to make her feel alright
and i'll be anything to keep her here tonite
cause i want you to stay, with me
i need you tonite
she comes to me like an angel out of time
as i play the part of a saint on my knees
there are some things i'll live without
but i want you to know that i need you right now
suffer my desire
suffer my desire
suffer my desire for you


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1979
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
on a live wire right up off the street
you and i should meet
junebug skipping like a stone
with the headlights pointed at the dawn
we were sure we'd never see an end to it all
and i don't even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know
just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
double cross the vacant and the bored
they're not sure just what we have in the store
morphine city slippin dues down to see
that we don't even care as restless as we are
we feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
and poured cement, lamented and assured
to the lights and towns below
faster than the speed of sound
faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope
justine never knew the rules,
hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
no apologies ever need be made, i know you better than you fake it
to see that we don't care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
the street heats the urgency of sound
as you can see there's no one around


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tales of a scorched earth
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

farewell goodnight last one out turn out the lights
and let me be, let me die inside
let me know the way from of this world of hate in you
cause the dye is cast, and the bitch is back
and we're all dead yeah we're all dead
inside the future of a shattered past
i lie just to be real, and i'd die just to feel
why do the same old things keep on happening?
because beyond my hopes there are no feelings
bless the martyrs and kiss the kids
for knowing better, for knowing this
cause you're all whores and i'm a fag
and i've got no mother and i've got no dad
to save me the wasted, save me from myself
i lie just to be real, and i'd die just to feel
why do the same old things keep on happening?
because beyond my hopes there are no feelings
everybody's lost just waiting to be found
everyone's a thought just waiting to fade
so f*** it all cause i don't care
so what somehow somewhere we dared
to try to dare to dare for a little more
i lie just to be real, and i'd die just to feel
why do the same old things keep on happening?
because beyond my hopes there are no reasons


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thru the eyes of ruby
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

wrap me up in always, and drag me in with maybes
your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death
your innocence is all i have
breathing underwater, and living under glass
and if you spin your love around
the secrets of your dreams
you may find your love is gone
and is not quite what it seemed
to appear to disappear
beneath all your darkest fears
i believe in never, i believe in all the way
but belief is not to notice, believe is just some faith
and faith can't help you to escape
and with this ring i wed thee true
and with this ring i wed thee now
and with this ring i play so dead
but no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you
if you spin your love around
the secrets of your dreams
you may find your love is gone
and is not quite what it seemed
to appear to disappear
beneath all your darkest fears
to the revelations of fresh faced youth
no one will come to save you
so speak your peace in the murmurs drawn
but youth is wasted on the young
your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate
my love for you just can't explain
why we're forever frozen, forever beautiful,
forever lost inside ourselves
the night has come to hold us young


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stumbleine
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

boredoms in the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth
sally's in the stirrups claiming her destiny
and nobody nowhere understands anything
about me and all my dreams
lost at sea
jack it up judy set your heart alight
mayfair mistress of the satellites
misspent youth-faking up a rampage
to hold off the real slaves
paid off and staid
and what you never knew
can never get to you
so fake it
i'll be your stumbleine
i'll be your super queen
and make you
jukebox f***up hanging round the drugstore
no matter what you say he'll be back for more
mommy's in the manger with the little kids
she's got her reasons, got my forgets
of tears and idle threats
misplaced
and no matter what they do
they can't get to you
so fake it
i'll be your stumbleine
i'll be your super queen
and make you me
come around ruby i could never sleep alone


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x.y.u.
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

she didn't wanna be, she didn't wanna know
she couldn't run away cause she was crazy
she gave it all away, she saw her baby break
and in the air it hung that she was dull razors
and i said, i wanna fill you up, i wanna break you, i wanna give you up
from one another, another one should come to one another
no one should come between us
still i was lonely, and she was by my side, my one and only
knows that she could never hide
i couldn't feel her, and it was just a game,
cause i was lonely and she was crazy
rat-tat-tat, ka boom boom, now take that, and just a bit of this
cause i'm a watcher, and i'm a doer of none
come to save you, cause you're all mine
i hurt where i can't feel, i feel where i can't hurt
i know where i can't know, i bleed for me and mine
ka-boom, a rat-tat-tat, and some good ole bliss
cause i'm a sister, and i'm a motherf***
i am made of shamrocks, i am made of stern stuff
i am never enough, i am the forgotten child
and i said i wanna fill you up, i wanna break you, i wanna give you up
from one another, no one should ever come
in between us, between us and our love
mary had a little lamb, her face was white as snow
and everywhere that mary went i was sure to go
now mary's got a problem, and mary's not a stupid girl
mary's got some deep s***, and mary does not forget
and this is how mary's garden grows, and this is how mary has her ghosts
and into the eyes of the jackyl i say ka-boom
now we begin descent, to where we've never been
there is no going back, this wasn't meant to last
this is a hell on earth, we are meant to serve
and she will never learn [she will never learn]
bye bye, baby goodbye [bye bye]


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we only come out at night
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
and once again, you'll pretend to know me well, my friends
and once again, i'll pretend to know the way
thru the empty space
thru the secret places of the heart
we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
i walk alone, i walk alone to find the way home
i'm on my own, i'm on my own to see the ways
that i can't help the days, you will make it home o.k
i know you can, and you can
we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
and once again, you'll pretend to know that
there's an end, that there's an end to this begin
it will help you sleep at night
it will make it seem that right is always right
alright?
we only come out at night


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beautiful
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun
wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come
and i can't help but feel attached
to the feelings i can't even match
with my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you
beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky
wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I
and i'm sure you know me well, as i'm sure you don't
but you just can't tell
who'll you love and who you won't
and i love you, as you love me
so let the clouds roll by your face
we'll let the world spin on to another place
we'll climb the tallest tree above it all
to look down on you and me and them
and i'm sure you know me well, as i'm sure you don't
but you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't
don't let your life wrap up around you
don't forget to call, whenever
i'll be here just waiting for you
i'll be under your stars forever
neither here nor there just right beside you
i'll be under the stairs forever
neither here nor there just right beside you


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lily (my one and only)
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

lily, my one and only
i can hardly wait till i see her
silly, i know i'm silly
cause i'm hanging in this tree
in the hopes that she will catch a glimpse of me
and thru her window shade
i watch her shadow move
i wonder if she.......?
lily, my one and only
love is in my heart and in your eyes
will she or won't she want him
no one knows for sure
but an officer is knocking at my door
and thru her window shade
i watch her shadow move
i wonder if she could only see me?
and when i'm with her i feel fine
if i could kiss her i wouldn't mind the time it took to find
my lily, my one and only
i can hardly wait till i see her
oh lily, i know you love me
cause as they're draggin me away
i swear i saw her raise her hand and wave (goodbye)


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by starlight
billy corgan
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

by starlight i'll kiss you
and promise to be your one and only
i'll make you feel happy
and leave you to be lost in mine
and where will we go, what will we do?
soon said i, will know
dead eyes, are you just like me?
cause her eyes were as vacant as the seas
dead eyes, are you just like me?
and all along, we knew we'd carry on
just to belong
by starlight i know you
as lovely as a wish granted true
my life has been empty, my life has been untrue
and does she really know, who i really am?
does she really know me at last
dead eyes, are you just like me?


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farewell and goodnight
billy corgan & james iha
??95 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music/cinderful music (bmi)

goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tite
may it hold you through the winter of a long night
and keep you from the loneliness of yourself
heart strung is your heart frayed and empty
cause it's hard luck, when no one understands your love
it's unsung, and i say
goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
goodnight, always, to all that's in your heart

goodnight, may your dreams be so happy and your
head lite with the wishes of a sandman and a night light
be careful not to let the bedbugs sleep tight nestled in your covers
the sun shines but i don't
a silver rain will wash away
and you can tell, it's just as well
goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
goodnight, always to all that's pure that's in your heart

The Aeroplane Flies High

...said sadly
james iha
??95 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

(JI=James Iha, NG=Nina Gordon (of Veruca Salt), B=both)

you should know that i love you
we should love like lovers do
and i can't help but fall for you
ah honey, i'm just a fool
now you know
darling, i'll never be true
you see, for so long i was blue
(i'm not the lonely one)
and if i hurt, then you will, too
ah honey, i always lose
now you know

lover, when will you?
i'm so afraid that no one cares
lover, can't find you
i swear to god, don't leave me here
now you know

oh you know that it can't be
when no one else here really means
(anything to me)
if you hurt inside
if you confide in me again

since you ran away
hold me now
tell me how
love is ours

lover, when will you?
i'm so afraid that no one cares
lover, can't find you
and no one knows what brings us here
lover
hold me now
tell me how
love is ours




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you're all i've got tonight
[the cars]
ric ocasek

i don't care if you hurt me some more
i don't care if you even the score
well you can knock me, i don't care
and you can mock me, i don't care
and you can lock me just about anywhere
it's alright 'cause you're all i've got tonight
i need you tonight
i don't care if you use me again
i don't care if you abuse me again
and you can make me, i don't care
and you can fake me, i don't care
and you can love me just about anywhere
it's alright 'cause you're all i've got tonight
i need you tonight
i don't wanna feel sorry for you
you don't have to make believe it's you too
well you can pump me, i don't care
and you can bump me, i don't care
and you can love me just about anywhere
it's alright 'cause you're all i've got tonight
i need you tonight


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clones (we're all)
[alice cooper]
david carron

i'm a clone, i know i'm fine
i'm one and more are on the way
i'm two, doctor
three's on the line
he'll take incubation another day

i'm all alone, so are we all
we're all clones
all are one and one are all

we destroyed the government
we're destroying time
no more problems on the way

i'm through doctor
we don't need your kind
the other ones
ugly ones
stupid boys
wrong ones

i'm all alone, so are we all
we're all clones
all are one and one are all

six is having problems
adjusting to his clone status
got to put him on a shelf
all day long we hear him crying so loud
i just wanna be myself, be myself

i'm a clone, i know i'm fine
i'm one and more are on the way
i'm two, doctor
three's on the line
he'll take incubation another day

i'm all alone, so are we all
we destroyed the government
we're destroyed time
no more problems on the way

i'm through doctor
we don't need your kind
the other ones
ugly ones
stupid boys
wrong ones

i'm all alone, so are we all
we're all clones
all are one and one are all
i'm all alone, so are we all


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a night like this
[the cure]
robert smith

say goodbye on a night like this
if it's the last thing we ever do
you never looked as lost as this
sometimes it doesn't even look like you
it goes dark
it goes darker still
please stay
but i watch you like i'm made of stone
as you walk away

i'm coming to find you if it takes me all night
a witch hunt for another girl
for always and ever is always for you
your trust
the most gorgeously stupid thing i ever cut in the world
so say hello on a day like today
say it every time you move
the way that you look at me now
makes me wish i was you
it goes deep
it goes deeper still
this touch
and the smile and the shake of your head

i'm coming to find you if it takes me all night
can't stand here like this anymore
for always and ever is always for you
i want it to be perfect
like before
oh, i want to change it all
oh, i want to change


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destination unknown
[missing persons]

life is so strange
when you don't know
how can you tell
where you're going to
you can't be sure
of any situation
something could change
and then you won't know
(you ask yourself)
where do we go from here?
it seems so all too near
just as far beyond as i can see
i still don't know what this all means to me
i have nowhere to go
i don't know what to do
and i don't even know the time of day
i guess it doesn't matter anyway
life is so strange
destination unknown
when you don't know your destination
something could change, it's unknown
and then you won't know
destination unknown
(and then i ask myself)
when will my time come?
has it all been said and done?
i know i'll leave when it's my time to go
???? what i know
life is so strange
destination unknown
when you don't know your destination
something could change, it's unknown
and then you won't know
destination unknown
life is so strange, life is so strange



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dreaming
[blondie]
deborah harry / chris stein


when i met you in the restaurant you could tell i was no debutante
you asked me what's my pleasure, a movie or a measure
i'll have a cup of tea and tell you of my dreaming
dreaming is free
i don't want to live on charity
pleasure's real, or is it fantasy?
reel to reel is living rarity
people stop and stare at me
we just walk on by
we just keep on dreaming
feet feet, walking a two mile
meet meet, meet me at the turnstile
i never met him, i'll never forget him
dream dream, even for a little while
dream dream, filling up an idle hour
fade away, radiate
i sit by and watch the river flow
i sit by and watch the traffic go
imagine something of your very own,
something you can have and hold
i'd build a road in gold just to have some dreaming
dreaming is free

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ugly
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

i don't look in the mirror
i don't like what i see staring back at me
everything is clearer
i'll never see what you see
it's not me
so beautiful and free
i'll never be what you need
can't help at all
i was born so beautiful
but now i'm ugly

and i rot in my skin
as a piece of me dies everyday
i know i'm nothing
i know there's nothing i can say
to change
the judgment in their ways
i'll never be what you need
can't help at all
my love was so beautiful
but now i'm ugly
yeah...

i'm good enough, but i don't care
i'm good enough, but i'm not there
i'm good enough, but i don't care
the sun is out, but i'm not there

(i can go anywhere) i'm good enough, but i don't care (...somewhere)
(i can go anywhere) the sun is out, but i'm not there (...somewhere)
(i can go anywhere) i'm good enough (...somewhere)
(i can go anywhere) i'm good enough (...somewhere)

i don't look in the mirror
i don't like what i see staring back at me
everything is clearer
i'll never see what you see
and i rot in my skin
as a piece of me dies everyday
i know i'm nothing
because i'm ugly


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believe
james iha
??96 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music (bmi)

close your eyes
until the sunlight dies
in your head a thousand stars
through the darkness you can see love light
and if they steal your light
your heart is still in mine

i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you, dear

of someday...

there's a life i hide
but i try to disguise
and i could take you a million miles away

i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you, dear

on sunday i made amends
of all my mistakes
may godspeed be with you

and i...
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth, a lover
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth, is no other
i want to believe in you, dear
of someday...

on sunday i make amends
for all my mistakes
may godspeed be with you


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cherry
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

(listen-wanna just start it?...ready, flood?
yeah...1, 2, 3, 4)

stay with me, i'll set you free
'cause i can tell you once were pretty
rose so sad you've lost your petals
and lost the luster of your tattle tales

i need a love to help me find my way
i need a strength that i cannot betray
i need a word to say what i can't say
i need a lover, lover
i need a lover, lover

what are we waiting for?
what are we waiting for?
time has lost its hold on me

hatred sleeps inside my bones
in the stillness of cool air
all the boys have been left for dead
'cause we know where they fear to tread
the beautiful ones, the ones we'll remember
the precious ones, our greatest pretenders

i need a love to help me find my way
i need a strength that i cannot betray
i need a word to say what i can't say
i need a lover, lover
i need a lover, lover

and if you lose yourself
could you take me, too?
could you rest inside the sleep?

stay with me, i'll set you free from you



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the boy
james iha
??96 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music (bmi)

i can't stop, i can't breathe, i can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again

ooh, and every time i heard you breathe
i sighed
ooh, and every time i saw you bleed
i cried
love is like a song
and if you sing
if you ever need me
i'll be there, and i-

i can't stop, can't breathe, can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again

ooh, and every time that i'm with you
i'm alive
ooh, and every time i think of you
there's a light
and i felt it, too

and my heart is a spring
is a well, if you need
if you drink it for you
then i'm leavin'
every little part of me is a part of you

i can't stop, i can't breathe, i can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again
i can't stop, i can't breathe, i can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again
the boy, the boy's in love
the boy, the boy's in love
the boy, the boy's in love
the boy, the boy's in love


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set the ray to jerry
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

born to please, every simple need
i stand alone, and my thoughts indeed hate you
for ever making me
i'm in you, i'll be anything

and i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you

come to me, let me hold you still
i'm so tired, just as tired as you
take me for anyone but me
all that you feel is never true

and i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you

when you say that you are
forever my star
i'll never let you go, no, no
i'll never let you know

let roar these feelings
to the whore of my tears
pure as a light, poured into your eyes
suck you like the sap from a tree
honey from the dew, from the bumblebees, yeah yeah

and i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you

when you say that you are
forever my star
i'll never let you go, no, no
i'll never let you know

and i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you


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God
billy corgan
??96 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs/cinderful music (bmi)

god knows i'm helpless to speak on my own behalf
god is as helpless as me caught in the negatives
we all just do as we please false transmissions
i hope god forgives me for my transgressions

it's what you want to know no consequences
it's what you need to f***ing bleed
it's all too much god knows i'm helpless

god know i'm restless and weak and full of piss and vinegar
god knows we sow what we reap in the dirt of grandeur
when the darkness comes to me and fixes its gaze on me
god knows I'm helpless

it's what you want to know no consequences
it's what you need to f***ing bleed
it's all too much god knows i'm helpless

you break you're back for what you can't have
you can't turn back
god knows I'm helpless


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mouths of babes
billy corgan
??96 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs/cinderful music (bmi)

so here we are true superstars we're so real from afar and now
now you're with us now

and the mouths of babes sing revolution
and the mouths of babes scream disillusion
you can't break what's already broken
cause from the mouths of babes comes nothing

the "dream" was a sham for saving what you can't and now
they're me but i'm not them i am you and you are me
it's in the ways i walk thru fire
it's in the ways of my desire
and when i said that you're no good
what i meant was i wish i could
be there forever be young forever i wish you could be there
so now i bid farewell beyond the bounds of hell
and now you'll swear you knew us well
well you can never tell

and the mouths of babes sing revolution
and the mouths of babes scream disillusion
you can't break what's already broken
cause from the mouths of babes comes nothing


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tribute to johnny
james iha/billy corgan
??96 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs/cinderful music/cellophane star music (bmi)

{Instrumental}


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marquis in spades
billy corgan
??96 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs/cinderful music (bmi)

and i'd love you to notice i'm devoted
to destroy for no one
now it's that time again to take revenge
on all the debutantes and their friends
the bitter charlemanges so self absorbed
the bodily remains such a bore
was i good enough to break you
and all i see is empty
cause now i'm one of them so adored
the slink of impotence that money can afford
we know who you are and where you live
is your innocence all that you can give
was i good enough to break you
in the back of the car the angel dust was given back to the stars
and in this fall from grace
we'll meet again another time another place i've been down deep in you and me
let's see where we can go
angels, barbed wire f*** you, desire


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pennies
billy corgan
??96 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs/cinderful music (bmi)

and i stumbled onto you as you stumbled over me
and you say the fates were cruel for throwing us together
i always loved you so especially when you'd go
all the world must know that i loved you so
it's a pity we're apart it's a shame you broke my heart
but i've got a new girlfriend she looks alot like you dear
no one could ever do dear all the world must know
that i loved you so especially when you'd go
especially when you'd go away and leave me here
go away and leave me alone all the world must know
pennies for sale


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pastichio medley
copyright control
??96 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs (bmi)

{Instrumental}


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meladori magpie
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

And on her doorstep
I saw that I was blind
I'd forsaken
What was mine

What had mattered
Mattered little now
We had shattered
Apart somehow

Ooh
I can't help but stay the same
I remain true to my name

Time to get up
And take the long walk home
For the first time
I go alone

Do you remember
when we first met?
Chasing down the alleyways
behind my dad's

Ooh
I can't help but stay the same
I remain true to the name
Of lovers past
Good enough to lose
Good enough to choose you, too

Ooh
I can't help but stay the same
Ooh
I remain true to the name
Of lovers past
Good enough to lose
Good enough to choose you, too


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rotten apples
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited

Where the cool winds blow
I must surely go
For my love calls me below to drag her
from the depths of my soul

When will I see her again?
The other side of friends
The darkened claws of death
The empty breath desire

Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited

Restless in my speech
And ruthless in my teach
So vacant in my breach
I drive the dirt up her garden

Sorrow
She'll never listen again
No other lovers to bend
Just rotten apples to eat
Just letter yellowed distant scorn

Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited

Life just fades away
Purity just begs
Dust to dust, we're wired into sadness


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jupiter's lament
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Gone, long gone
We can all be gone, gone, gone
Leave this world all wrong, wrong, wrong
Leave it far behind

And although my secret's gone I'll try to carry on
If I must, I'll get along without you

Gone, long gone
Leave this world all wrong, wrong, wrong
Beyond the pale beyond the dawn
Free these mortal bonds
No one knows I can't be wrong
So I'll sing the same old songs
I try to be strong for you

Why have you left me
Amongst the tall trees
I know I gave her all I have

And I tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons and bows

And I'm gone
Oh yes, I'm gone
And I'm lost without you
I'm lost within you
And I'm gone, so gone, long gone


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medellia of the grey skies
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

You're an empty promise
You're an easy chair
You're the gods forces
Struck down somewhere

You're a secret noticed
You're a mystery sky
You're a wish floating
Up to the night

Medellia of my eyes
You're the emptiness of I
You're the reason that I write
And if you say you will
I would love you still

And if I could
I'd throw away this world
I'd dress you all in pearls
I'd give you what you wanted

You're all I notice
In a crowded room
Your vacant motives
Unmoved, revealed

Medellia of my eyes
You're the emptiness of I
You're the reason that I drive
And if you say you will
I would love you still

And if I just could
Be anything for you
Just anyone at all
Anything that mattered, washed out

You're the silly reasons
In a goldfish laugh
You're the ageless seasons
At rest, at last


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blank
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank

I'd write a letter to you
And there'd be nothing to it
I wouldn't hem and haw
On just how to start it

I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank

I wish I'd stand up straight
I wish I'd said things different
I wish I'd said nothing
Things would be so perfect
I wish myself to keep
I pray my soul to sleep
I wish myself away
I wish I was blank


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tonite reprise
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

and the embers never fade in my city by the lake
the place where i was born
as the wind-up toys wore down
muffling the sound of a life hidden underground
believe, believe in me, believe
that you can change, that you're not stuck in vain
we're not the same we're different tonite
we'll crucify the insincere tonite
we'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonite
the impossible is possible tonite
believe in me like i believe in you tonite

transformer
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

[hit it]
a livewire moves slow
a transformer always knows
the score is four
leaves you hanging on the floor
for more and less and more of the blame
and she's tired
and she's sick of the same old s***
it's just more of the same old same
i know she wants more and more and more to witness
to lay down and bear true
a cherry onion firefly
tastes sweet and white
as you are blue
knows just what she wants to do
with you below the silver skies
don't hate her because she's undecided
and she's tired
and she's sick of the same old s***
it's just more of the same old same
i know she wants more and more and more to stomach
in honor of her youth
she's not sorry she's happy
sorry she's happy
she's not sorry she's happy
sorry she's happy as a turtle
she's a real live transformer


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the aeroplane flies high (turns left, looks right)
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

I really don't wanna look stupid when I'm sleeping
I never really liked sunny days
The black wings just reach out to me over a distance...
And I can feel the wind from the wings
I see the clouds, I feel the ocean with my feet, and I'm home again
It requires an ability to judge distance
The airplane flies high...turns left, looks right

love is a sentimental heart
life is a sentimental way
spy the fragile heart so cursed
as he walks across this earth
i'm disconnected by your smile
disconnect a million miles
and what you promised me
i hope will set you free
i'm disconnected by your smile

If I knew where I was going I would already be there
(Laugh) I wish I had more time
Judicious, beautiful, uh, demented, whatever
I've always been afraid to die, but I think I'm more afraid to live

and all i gave to you is lost
and all you took from me is lost
black wings carry me so high
up to meet you in the sky
i'm disconnected by your smile
disconnect a million miles
and what you promised me
i hope will set you free
i'm disconnected by your smile
wishing you were real to me
wishing i could make believe
i'll take my secrets to the grave
safely held beneath the waves
always knew i couldn't save
always knew i couldn't save you

[8:02] And in the heart I know you're there
And in my heart I know you care
And in my heart I know you don't


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the last song
billy corgan
??96 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

this is the last song
this is the last song i'll sing for you
this is the last song
this is the last song i can give you
the roaring city sleeps
metal fingers clutching dirty sheets
and no one comes for free
in this place where the angels sleep
this is the last song
my eyes are open wonder to this
as you hold the secrets
i count the minutes off so perfectly
the shards of broken glass
sing the strains of a sad old tune
we've made it at last
but what we had is lost inside our past
this is the last song
could you find away across me
to forgive and forget me
to appease and relent me
to deceive and detect me
to understand and release me
to the dawn
this is the last song


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the bells
james iha
??96 cellophane star music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

ooh the bells are ringing out
what a sound
ooh the bells are ringing out
what a sound
and i'm in love
the joy of love
the coming of
jesus
jesus
did you call my name
never ever felt afraid
did you hold onto
did you make it thru
you
there's so much doubt in every heart
for all our faults we carry on
jesus
jesus i ran away
i got so scared
i made mistakes
will i hold onto
will i make it thru
ooh the bells are ringing out
what a sound


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my blue heaven
george whiting/roger donaldson

day is ending
words are wending
back to the show ?
each little nestling love
night sheds falling
love words calling
what makes the world go 'round
nothing my love when whippoorwills call
the evening is nigh
i hum it to my blue heaven
i turn to the right
? the light
? to my blue heaven
you'll see a smiling face,
a fireplace,
a cozy room
a little nest
that's nestled where the roses bloom
just molly and me
and baby makes three
we're happy in my blue heaven

Adore

to sheila
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

twilight fades
through blistered avalon
the sky's cruel torch
on arching autobahn
into the uncertain divine
we scream into the last divine

you make me real
you make me real
strong as i feel
you make me real

sheila rides on crashing nightingale
intake eyes leave passing vapor trails
with blushing brilliance alive
because it's time to arrive

you make me real
you make me real
strong as i feel
you make me real

lately I just can't seem to believe
discard my friends to change the scenery
it meant the wrold to hold a bruising faith
but now it's just a matter of grace

a summer storm graces all of me
highway warm sing silent poetry
I could bring you the light
and take you home into the night

you make me real
lately I just can't seem to believe
you make me real
discard my friends to change the scenery
strong as i feel
it meant the world to hold a bruising faith
you make me real
but now it's just a matter of grace


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ava adore
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

it's you that I adore
you'll always be my whore
you'll be the mother to my child
and a child to my heart
we must never be apart
we must never be apart

lovely girl you're the beauty in my world
without you there aren't reasons left to find

and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
you'll be a lover in my bed
and a gun to my head
we must never be apart
we must never be apart

in you I see dirty
in you I count stars
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
in you I feel so hungry
in you I crash cars
we must never be apart

drinking mercury
to the mystery of all that you should ever seek to find
lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls I've left behind
in time
we must never be apar

tand you'll always be my whore
cause you're the one that i adore
and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
in you I feel so dirty in you I crash cars
in you I feel so pretty in you I taste god
we must never be apart


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perfect
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

I know we're just like old friends
we just can't pretend
that lovers make amends
we are reasons so unreal
we can't help but feel that something has been lost

but please you know you're just like me
next time I promise we'll be
perfect
perfect
perfect strangers down the line
lovers out of time
memories unwind

so far I still know who you are
but now I wonder who I was...

angel, you know it's not the end
we'll always be good friends
the letters have been sent on

so please, you always were so free
you'll see, I promise we'll be
perfect
perfect strangers when we meet
strangers on the street
lovers while we meet

perfect
you know this has to be
we always we're so free
we promised that we'd be
perfect


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daphne descends
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

with the sugar sickness
you spy the kidnap kid
who kids you to oblivion
it's the perfect hassle
for the perfumed kiss
he makes you miss him more than home

you love him
you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot, you can't resist
you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one, no one else

past sidewalk ashes a last lovers arc
you come apart to intertwine
it was all so simple
as you watched him move
across the darkness in your room

you love him
you love him for youself
you love him and no one, no one else

and the winding vines
the pretty boys dive
and thru the pinhole stars
into the shadow mind
you will lose him then
on some gentle dawn
this boy is here and gone

you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one, no one else
you love him
you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot, you can't resist

you love him...


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once upon a time
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Mother I'm tired
come surrender my son
time has ravaged on my soul
no plans to leave but still I go

Fallin' with the leaves
fallin' out of sleep
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?

Mother I've tried
wasting my life
I haven't given up, I lie
to make you so proud in my eyes

Fallin' out of sleep
crawlin' over me
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?

Tuesdays come and gone
restless i still drive
try to leave it all behind

fallin', fallin' out of sleep
fallin', fallin' with the leaves
I go crawlin', crawlin' over me

Once upon a time in my life...
I went falling...

Mother I hope you know
that I miss you so
time has ravaged on my soul
to wipe a mothers tears grown cold


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tear
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

the lights came on fast
lost in motorcrash
gone in a flash unreal
but you knew all along
you laugh the light
I sing the songs
to watch you numb

I saw you there
you were on your way
you held the rain
and for the first time
heaven seemed insane
cause heaven is to blame
for taking you away

do you know the way that I can?
do you know the way that I can't lose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things that I can do?

where is your heart? where is your heart gone to?
tear me apart
tear me apart from you
you laugh the light I cry the wound
in gray afternoons

I saw you there
you were on your way
you held the rain
and for the first time
heaven seemed insane
cause heaven is to blame
for taking you away

the lights came to pass
dead opera motorcrash
gone in a flash unreal
in nitrous overcast

do you know the way that I can?
do you know the way that I can't choose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things that I can't lose?

tear me apart
tear me apart from you
where is your heart?
where has your heart run to?


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crestfallen
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

who am I to need you when I'm down
where are you when I need you around
your life is not your own

and all I ask you
is for another chance
another way around you
to live by circumstance, once again

who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me

and you may go, but I know you won't leave
too many years built into memories
your life is not your own

who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me

who am I to you?
along the way
I lost my faith

and as you were, you'll be again
to mold like clay, to break like dirt
to tear me up in your sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me

who am I?


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appels + oranjes
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?
what if the wind refused to blow?
what if the seas refused to wave?
what if the world refused to turn?
what if the stars would hesitate?

what if, what is isn't true?
what are you going to do?
what if, what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new

what if the silence let you dream?
what if the air could let you breathe?
what if the words would bring you here?
what if this sound could bring you peace?

what if, what is isn't true?
what are you going to do?
digging for the feel of something new
what if, what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?

it came from your thoughts, your dreams and visions
ripped up from your weeks and indecisions

what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?
what if the wrold refused to turn?
what if the clocks would hesitate?

what if, what is isn't true?
what are you going to do?
what if, what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new

does that mean you've got to choose?
the feel of something new
does that mean you've got to lose?
the thoughts you cannot lose
what are you gonna do?


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pug
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

kiss and kill me sweetly
come and drive me home
drag the miles in me
I am yours alone

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you

desire me so deeply
drain and kick me hard
whisper secrets for me
try to go too far

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into...

please don't change
please don't change at all
bring your rain
bring your rain to fall

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you

come and kiss me sweetly
ride the telephone
drag the miles to me
I am yours alone
yours alone
on the telephone
yours alone
looking for a kiss kiss
yours alone


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the tale of dusty and pistol pete
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

dusty screams, through doors and imaginary floors
"why can't you miss me?"
pistol pete removes the final breaths from her unkind and she is shaken
what does this mean in love or in peace?
with you lying next to me
so faithless serene
and she calls to him

let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars

alone he roams inside the ordinary catacombs of her waiting
with raven hands she steals and staggers towards her man
still scorned by his demon

because he's undone
become the language of
disaster and love, vengeance and dust
and she calls to him

let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars

dusty screams, through doors and imaginary scenes
of hurt and teardrop
as he holds her down, in the cold lonely winds
together again, her inside him
and she calls to him

let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars


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annie-dog
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a face
her velvet spleen her shackle spine
her diamond curse
it comes with mine

a vessel she
for violent I
confession arms a wake
mine, mine you were always mine
possessed by my taste

and below the angel dog
combs her hair and sings her psalms
the bombs go off
she doesn't notice
it all goes wrong
she sets things tragic
she is venus
she is mars
she's electric
and the struggle of

upon my face we leave no trace
but in her stomach mercury aged

she holds the blood
she carves the knives
she digs the wives in our babies

amphetamine annie-dog
pulls her trash
and her stories
from place to place
and bed to bed
gives of herself and the magnet head

another floor another ceiling
counting stairs with double meanings

is it wrong to be swallowed whole
to disappear in her
to give her the priceless peace
of giving up control

we tumble out into the streets
and annie-dog she drags her leash
pretty face
ugly mouth
bitter bred and so released

and by the no
and by the yes
annie goes if you couldn't guess

a simple man
a sycophant
her elephant with the laughing call
she wants clean sheets
and fresh flowers
and dental shots
and the hong kong glue

amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a face


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shame
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna see this through
don't let them get to you

shame

love is good and love is kind
love is drunk and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is drunk all the time

shame

you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna walk so far
you're gonna wonder who you are

shame

love is good and love is kind
love is good and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is good all the time

hello goodbye, you know you made us cry...


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behold! the night mare
billy corgan & james iha
??98 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music (bmi)

I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
appease you
the wind blows and I know

I can't go on, digging roses from you grave
to linger on, beyond the beyond
where the willows weep
and whirlpools sleep, you'll find me
the coarse tide reflects sky

and the night mare rides on, and the night mare rides on
with a december black psalm
and the night mare rides on
what i fear is lost here
the wind blows and I know

all you have to do is run away
and steal yourself from me
become a mystery to gaze into
you're so cruel in all you do
but still I believe, I believe in you

so may you come with your own knives
you'll never take me alive
with all the force of what is true
is there nothing I can do?

I can't go on, digging roses from you grave
to linger on, beyond the beyond
where the willows weep
and whirlpools sleep, you'll find me

and the night mare rides on, and the night mare rides on
with a december black psalma
nd the night mare rides on

I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
to hold the flower I can't keep


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for martha
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

whenever I run
whenever I run to you lost one
it's never done
just hanging on

just past has let me be
returning as if dream
shattered as belief

if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to go don't you cry
if you have to go I will get by
someday I'll follow you and see you on the other side

but for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of
heaven from above

your picture out of time
left aching in my mind
shadows kept alive

if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to go don't you cry
if you have to go I will get by
I will follow you and see you on the other side

but for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of
heaven from above

long horses we are born
creatures more than torn
mourning our way home


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blank page
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

blank page is all the rage
never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
stop sign told me stay at home
told me you were not alone
blank page was all the rage
never meant to hurt anyone
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
you haven't changed
you're still the same
may you rise as you fall
you were easy you are forgotten
you are the ways of my mistakes
I catch the rainfall
through the leaking roof
that you had left behind
you remind me
of that leak in my soul
the rain falls
my friends call
leaking rain on the phone

take a day palnt some trees
may they shade you from me
may your children play beneath

blank page was all the rage

never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
but there I was picking pieces up
you are a ghost
of my indecision
no more little girl


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17
billy corgan
??98 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

17 seconds of compassion
17 seconds of peace
17 seconds to remember love is the energy
behind witch all is created
17 seconds to remember all that is good
17 seconds to forget all your hurt and pain
17 seconds of faith
17 seconds to trust you again
17 seconds of radiance
17 seconds to send a prayer up
17 seconds is all that you need

MACHINA/ The Machines Of God

Coming Soon

Gish
Siamese Dream
Pisces Iscariot
Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness
The Aeroplane Flies High
Adore